How about the Twelve days to 50?
Let’s try a little modification to an old song. How about the Twelve days to 50? I will be fifty in twelve days. This is so shocking to me! I don’t feel fifty, if anything I feel late twenties early thirties. I am excited to be fifty, not exactly sure why.
When I turned 20, I was very pregnant, three months later I would become a mother. My whole life changed. What a gift! It was not an easy transition, though I doubt it is for anyone. I made a lot of mistakes. My twenties brought two children, two long term relationships, one marriage, one divorce, my own home, and many new friends.
You know when I was 29 I was totally freaked out about turning 30, as if life as I knew it would just fall apart and or end. It didn’t.
In my thirties I lost a very close friend, which set in motion a series of events that would have me on the path of finding myself and my dreams. I would learn to travel on my own, eat by myself in a restaurant. Again there would be two long-term relationships, one marriage, we would blend families together giving us four children, though all four became teenagers, (not always easy, yet definitely worth every moment). I lost a parent, who to this day speaks to me in ways I would never have thought. We had the first of the graduations, many good friends, as well as many things we enjoyed doing.
When I turned 40 I was pretty happy, I had just gotten married. During my forties our kids grew up finishing high school and college, the oldest getting married and having a child; of her own. I was able to pursue my dreams more fully, travel internationally. Again there was a divorce, and this time I had to fully learn to stand on my own. I learned to shop for just one, I learned to set and hold boundaries, I learned to be me, and to like me. I made new friends and distanced myself from old friends. I learned that no matter how much you love someone you must choose yourself or be lost. I learned that it is ok to grieve as this is the only way to heal, and to not rush it. I had to make many hard decisions to become the person I am today. Today I am twelve days to Fifty.
December 01 2017 03:13 pm | Uncategorized