What broke; the wall, the barrier, the belief?
November 21st, 2017 -- Posted in Uncategorized | No Comments »Recently it broke. What broke; the wall, the barrier, the belief? I am not sure exactly what it was; I simply know it isn’t there anymore.
You know how sometimes you are sitting, walking, or driving along and someone pops into your mind. They just pop up for no apparent reason. Well I have had this happen a lot lately, and I pushed it back out and went about my business. However it becomes more and more difficult to deny when it keeps happening again and again. It’s especially weird in that these are not idol moments, these are not nostalgic places, I am actually engaged in conversations and tasks where my mind is far from this being, and Wham!!! Finally I had to conclude this is not me, this is them. That being must be thinking about me.
So as I do; I asked my ethereal peeps what’s up? Why does this being keep coming up, am I missing something? Is there something I need from this? Am I sending out something that is creating this? The response was, this person is loving you and all that you represented to them once upon a time; and that is when it broke. I actually felt it break, or fall away, whatever it was. I mean I actually literally in a physical way felt it shift. I thought maybe I had imagined it, that it was just my imagination fluffing me up.
I know it wasn’t my imagination, I know it was real. I know this because it has impacted every day since. From my dreams, to my thoughts, to the way people have been responding to me. I have had more people receive me, laugh with me, flirt with me, and fully engage with me in the last few weeks than I have in many years. (This is saying something; as I have interacted with more 12,000 people in the last two and half years of driving.) It feels good, it feels exciting, it feels joyful, it feels authentic!
Do you know what it was? I heard them, I finally received what they had been saying, and with that I forgave. I forgave you, and I forgave me, and my heart opened. Thank you, Thank you, and Thank you for this!