What is your magic number?
How old are you? How old do you feel? What does age mean to you?
I get asked my age frequently; sometimes straight forward and sometimes in a roundabout. I have found that recently I tend to answer this question with almost fifty as if I am twelve wanting to finally be thirteen; I have even just straight out said fifty, even though I am forty nine. Not until the end of this year will I be fifty.
I do not feel fifty, though I am not sure what fifty should feel like. I am rarely guessed anywhere close to my true age, and I think sometimes I just enjoy the shock people have at my age. Alright honestly I love the reactions. I have been hit on very strongly twice this week once by a 23 year old and the other a 26 year old. The first was very persistent that I come dancing with him and his friends, until I mentioned (purposefully ) that my 29 year old son had just gone up to comic con that day with my son in law. His reaction was wow I thought you were late twenties; your son is older than me (yep, and my son would say the same). The other just wanted to sit in the car and talk to me, and when I had to leave he just kept hugging me. This kind of thing happens all the time to me, and frankly always has. It happens more when I am just being me and not trying to be professional uber driver extraordinaire.
I keep thinking about time and how weird it is. Things like this year would have been my 10th anniversary, and on the same day it will be my daughter’s sixth year anniversary. It has been five years since I have lived in the UK. My son is nine years older than I was, when I had him. It has been 35 years since I had my very first boyfriend. It has been 4 years since I went to India. My mother will be 75 in a year. I have been driving for uber almost two years. How is all of that not weird?
To many fifty feels like buying an RV and hosting campers in all the national parks. To me it feels like and expresso in Parisian cafe with a charming man. What does your age feel like to you?
March 04 2017 06:17 pm | Uncategorized